In one word... (and this took me some time to think of the right word) it would be that the past couple of days were Rough
I say that because while in my current state I am frazzled or stressed or disquiet or even in a state of anxiety. This is because of quite a lot of separate factors focussed in like a gank on an overextended lane (seriously, don't over extend your lanes, why would you push bot by yourself to the inner turret with 4 mia. when you die it's because of your failself D: -- referring to LoL).
In terms of Mischief Mages (saying this first cause rest of post is whiney ew disgusting), I've done a little work on the map, Pauls shown me what it'd look like in game, looks kind of cool but needs alot of work. He's also gotten the shader in (zomg, yes, thats amazing!) so now the models don't look like blobs and are now kind of cool :D
In terms of drawing... I drew a picture on paper the other day for a friend, I used colour pencils for the first time in years, so that was fun. For comics... Shift is the only atm that seems to be picking up cause its so easy to draw. My other ones are still in progress though :).
oh! and ryans laptop died. lololol, he sent it away to get fixed but he won't have it for lik 3 weeks.
That's all the important stuff so onto stupid part of blog, the rambling.
After my first week back at uni I was mostly fine and prepared to get back into the student life with work on the weekend.
But the last few days have been some of the most rough
I've had in recent memory. I guess skipping some... lead up drama (sad stupid... but surprisingly deep drama, lol) it's mainly this: I worked 10 hours on friday night, 9 hours on saturday night and 8 hours on sunday night (not unusual at all). I slept when I got home, but sleep was quite... broken. None more so than this morning.
crappy crappy graphs D:
With recent renovations done to our home. The weeks where the tilers came in and worked from the morning to the afternoon (the time where I would be asleep, some days I'd get home from work and they'd already started) were a little harsh, I wouldnt sleep as much as I'd like but whatever, I got some.
Except this morning was the day that the bathroom was getting ripped apart to be slapped back together with newer, BETTER parts and all that jazz.
Tiles had to be ripped off the walls and the ground, the whole shower cubicle ripped off and chucked out and the toilet gone as well, everything but the sink (this is true, because the new sink was already put in a week earlier).
The bathroom happens to be right next to my bedroom.
so when I got home this morning after working 3 consecutive days with not so much sleep or real food and nothing to do for the remainder of the day but sleep and relaxing and sorting my head... I had continually interrupted by power tools being used in the room over.
I guess the bright side is I got my bag delivered and my shiny new laptop will be in next week. Which brings me to my next point, I feel disgusted after saving all my money and then buying a shitload all at once. It didn't sit well with me having to transfer my monies... but I kind of need these things for uni and such. so... well, yay for me :D (real Yay, cause I have new stuff :D)
So this pretty much sums up my weekend, I spent a ridiculous ammount of money, got no sleep, didn't eat real food (work food isn't real food D:) it was rough
. I was so mentally-- just mental actually that I began to reevaluate some of my ideologies. After a while this would become a little entertaining arguing with myself (I went just a little crazy).
I have this whole rant now about 'nice guys' (faux nice guys actually) but I'll save that new crazy for later.
I had to redraw this cause of a blackout... not happy D:
I guess... I just didn't expect that I could get this... distraught so quickly over these last few days. I'm normally ready to lol at anything but these past days... just wore on me so hard (that's what she said!) that I feel about ready to snap. I know I need sleep, but I figure I can blog this while I can, cause what other opportunity will I have to blog about something as long. (that being said, my next few blogs will probs be veeeery short, cause of stuff to work on and mostly just updates). I'll probably have a few blogs on stuff I bought more in depth later.
I still have the rest of my birthday rum from my 18th (woooow... that was so long ago) sitting on my desk... and I'm not a big drinker but I've been so tempted to down it (and then die, cause that's what happens when I drink).
I really want to leave off on a happy note... cause bleak is dusgusting, I'm sure that if i try to reread this I'll gag just looking at my words. Something like... oh, I get off probation for my job at the casino next week, that's fun. I'll get a payrise and everything :D
Aidan will start in like 2 weeks as well, he's still in training but from what he's been saying he's having fun (yey)
So in conclusion (lolololol, influence of school), it can be seen that this report shows that the main focus of this weekend was a little sad a few parts harsh and a couple parts lonely (who works their entire weekend anyway, pffft). In total... it was rough
Edit: I know what i can leave off with! This song :D I've been listening to it aaaaalll the time (as well as Bruno Mars - Grenade
, but people know that song (omg... so many tries to get that url to work wtf hahaha)
This is 'Start Again' by Sam Tsui
weeeee :D <3 this song ^__^ [YouTube